My True
Identity
Will
I own my self
Will
I say YES to my life
Will
I be honest about my story
Will
I see it all for what it is
Born
in pain
Born
feeling pain
Born
incapable of ignoring pain
Never
"normal"
Never
able to be just like everyone else
Always
wondering
Always
asking
Always
searching
Never
satisfied
Never
content
Questioning
Arguing
Debating
Seeking,
searching
Doubting,
fearing
Crying
out
Restless
Anxious
Obnoxious
Arrogant
Conceited
And
at the same time
Confused
as hell
Angry
Resentful
Bitter
Feeling
lost, alone
Desperately
seeking more, better, different
and
knowing all along that it too would be empty
Futility
Emptiness
Despair
Rage
- why me?
Why
do I have to feel?
What
do I do with all of this?
Will
I own my identity?
Will
I say yes to my story?
Will
I whole heartedly join the new leaders of the brand new world?
Will
I surrender my renegade, rebel "individual" will to my ultimate
destiny?
Will
I awaken to this truth -
all
will be answered
all
will be fulfilled
only
in the full, total, complete consent and surrender to myself as a part of the
ONE
Will
I finally give up the fight against
standing
alone
and
realize
that
I must melt within the ONE
Will
I choose
Will
I make the only free choice I have
or
will blows
force
me to choose?
Will
I run with joy toward the castle - toward my friends - waiting for me
or
will I be forced
to
bang on the door as the dogs eat at my heels and rip at my clothes?
Help
Help Help
Help
Help Help
Lies,
arrogance, vanity, conceit and pride
keep
me out
Help
Help Help
Alone
I cannot chose
Now
is the time
May
I choose to be who I am
By
Molly Bolte
