Psalms In The Heart

  Ashes to Flame The lies I hear Scream loud in my ear They promise, but tear me apart Desires betray They lead me astray Leaving scars in the depth of my heart The mask I wear Is heavy with care And it mocks every prayer that I cry I stumble, I fall I feel nothing at all Just ashes and silence inside The ego takes hold Its grip turns cold It laughs as I kneel in the dirt It whispers with glee “You’ll never break free— Your love is a dream that won’t work.” But then a hand breaks through A friend pulls me true Reminding me I’m not alone In the pit of despair They meet me there And together we carve out a home The ego fights back It plans its attack But we rise, one bundle, one flame Through faith above reason In every season We cry out the Creator’s Name So though I bleed It’s love that I need And it’s love that will carry me still From the lowest descent To the heights heaven-sent His mercy fulfills every will

Through the Ashes The lies I hear Scream loud in my ear They promise, but tear me apart Desires betray They lead me astray Leaving scars in the depth of my heart The mask I wear Is heavy with care And it mocks every prayer that I cry I stumble, I fall I feel nothing at all Just ashes and silence inside But a hand breaks through A friend pulls me true Reminding me I’m not alone In the pit of despair They meet me there And together we carve out a home The ego fights back It plans its attack But we rise, one bundle, one flame Through faith above reason In every season We cry out the Creator’s Name So though I bleed It’s love that I need And it’s love that will carry me still From the lowest descent To the heights heaven-sent His mercy fulfills every will

The Path of Struggle The nights feel long The pain feels strong And the ego keeps whispering lies The war within The weight of sin It crushes, it burns, it denies But the heart won’t break It learns to awake When a friend holds your hand through the storm Through fire and tears Through shadows and fears A new soul begins to form So we fall, we rise We tear off disguise Till only the truth can remain Through love we ascend Through the strength of a friend And eternal connection we gain So cling to the Light Through the darkest night For the Creator is near all along When the hearts unite Faith takes its flight And our suffering turns into song

Depart From Evil  I spit at the mirror, I curse at the night, The filth of my heart won’t let in the light. I claw at the chains that tighten my breath, Every thought that I chase just drags me to death. I preach that I’m holy, but rot fills my veins, My ego’s a tyrant that laughs at my pains. I run from the shadows, they tear me apart, I see that the devil’s been etched in my heart. The more that I fight, the deeper I sink, I drown in the poison I promised to drink. My “strength” is a lie, my “virtue” a fraud, I’m nothing but ashes without my God. But just when I’m shattered, too broken to stand, A whisper of mercy takes hold of my hand. The fire is quenched, the torment is still, The Healer restores me—according to His will. So evil departs, not by might, not by art, But by faith above reason and love in the heart. Through prayer and surrender, the bondage will cease, The darkness is broken, the soul finds its peace.

The Mountain of Fire and Love The mountain bled with smoke and flame, my ego howled, consumed by shame. It clawed my flesh, it tore my soul, its hunger dark, a gaping hole. The nations rose with teeth of steel, they cursed the light, they cursed the deal. “Bow to no law, serve lust and greed, forget this path, let pride succeed.” The sky was black, the earth did quake, my heart near burst, my bones did break. In chains of wrath I gasped for breath, each step I took was close to death. Yet in the pit a whisper came, a tender spark, a holy flame. “Unite as one, annul, embrace, together you will find His face.” The fire cooled, the night grew still, my shattered will was bent to thrill. The Torah shone, a healing dove, and from the ash sprang endless love. Now hand in hand, we stand above, no fear remains, just bonds of love. One soul, one heart, our will undone, unconditional — we are one.

Poem of Unity in the Ten The greatest work is to unite as one, To seek the Creator till the veil is gone. In every ten the Shechina will shine, A dwelling of mercy, a presence divine. Each comes to his friend with a word to bestow, To share of the path, what the heart longs to know. Annulment in circles, each bending low, So kindness and mercy through heaven will flow. For more than the calf who yearns for the breast, The Giver of life longs to grant us His rest. He hastens to bless where intentions are pure, Revealing His kindness that ever endures. But hidden within is the battle unspoken, The pride of the heart that resists being broken. Without prayer and yearning the ten will not stand, It turns into dust, like castles of sand. So gather with purpose, not friendship alone, For unity’s root is the One we enthrone. Together we rise, above reason we climb, The Shechina revealed in our circle sublime.

From Keter to Binah, and Binah to Malchut From Keter’s crown the light descends, A giving flow that never bends, Binah bows, it will not take, Passive annulment, for Heaven’s sake. “I need no gift, I seek no gain, To be like You, I shun the chain, Content to shine, content to bestow, No hunger within, no urge below.” But Malchut cries with burning need, A vessel vast, a will to feed, It cannot hide, it cannot stay, Its heart must act, must find the way. Active annulment, fire and fight, To turn its darkness into light, To use its hunger, not for “me,” But lift it high, to “You” it’ll be. So faith above what reason knows, Through love of others, the river flows, From crown to kingdom, the circle complete, Annulment transforms the will’s deceit. No lust, no wrath, no greed remain, All turn to joy instead of pain, In faith above, the souls arise, Unconditional love now fills the skies.