“When Prayer Can’t Pray”
I came with words, I came with need
I came believing You would lead
I knocked so hard my knuckles bled
And heaven stayed completely dead
My mouth went dry, my heart went cold
The body laughed, you’ve prayed — you’re old
“Look at the years, look at the cost
Every request already lost”
I knew You help, I knew it’s true
But knowing didn’t pull me through
The bitter herb stayed in my throat
I swallowed prayers — they wouldn’t float
Then faith collapsed, not You — just me
No strength to ask, no will to plea
So here I stood, stripped of disguise
With nothing left but empty eyes
And in that place so dark, so bare
I found one thing that still was there
A cry not shaped, a plea undone
“Help me to pray — I have none”
No answer came, no sudden light
Just one more step against my sight
To trust You hear, though I don’t feel
To pray against what looks real
This is the work — not hope that sees
But standing broke upon my knees
When prayer dies and still I stay
That is the faith above the way
