Psalms In The Heart

1. Awakening – The Point in the Heart I wander through life with hollow eyes, Drunk on illusions, feeding on lies. But a thorn in my chest will not let me sleep, A hunger eternal, a yearning so deep. I thought it was madness, I thought it was pain, But it whispered of truth I could not contain. “Seek Me in love, not in gold or in lust, Build in the Ten, in connection and trust.” 2. Despair – Revelation of Evil I tried to rise, but the ego screamed, It shattered my hope, devoured my dream. Every prayer mocked, every deed cursed, The will to receive showed its teeth at its worst. I saw my reflection, a beast in the glass, Laughing at virtue, spitting at class. And I cried, “Creator, why was I made? To drown in the filth of the ego’s blade?” 3. First Light – Faith Above Reason In the pit of despair, a spark appeared, Silent and small, yet sharp and seared. Not knowledge, not proof, not reason’s chain, But a whisper of love that broke my pain. “I am with you,” the silence said, “...

The First Degree I choke on the chains of my own desire, Hands burned bloody from chasing the fire. Every joy fades, every dream dies, My heart’s a graveyard of broken lies. I scream to the void—nothing replies, Till shame cuts deep and opens my eyes. I see the friends, I see the flame, A force of love I cannot name. The ego claws, it will not let go, It curses the path, it hates to bestow. But in the rubble, a whisper is heard— Not in my voice, but in His word. “Rise above reason, trust what you feel, The drop of love you give is real. It will not be lost, it cannot decay, It’s eternal Light in a fleeting day.” So I bow to the friends, my fortress, my guide, Their hearts are the vessel where I abide. Through brutal fire, through faith I’m remade, Unconditional love is the first step laid.

In Pennsylvania’s embrace, at Fox Run’s sacred ground, Where hearts converge, where love is found, The Creator’s light, a beacon bright, Guides our souls through day and night. From JR’s eyes, the hugs unfold, Friends like family, warm and bold, A spectacle divine, the Creator’s art, Painting joy within each heart. Lance speaks of love, a tender flame, Each friend’s embrace, no one the same, Yearning to unite, above the strife, Rising as one to a higher life. Ella’s tale begins at journey’s start, A team of care, with open heart, Bananas, water, love’s sweet deed, A trip that meets the soul’s deep need. The rain, a downpour, fierce and wild, Yet halts as if by heaven styled, The moment we arrive, the skies clear wide, Nature’s bow to the Creator’s pride. That first night’s circle, voices raised, Songs of unity, our hearts ablaze, One family formed, hearts intertwined, A merging of souls, pure and kind. Ella’s friends, in awe they stand, On gloomy days, the land so grand, Nature’s beaut...

  Ashes to Flame The lies I hear Scream loud in my ear They promise, but tear me apart Desires betray They lead me astray Leaving scars in the depth of my heart The mask I wear Is heavy with care And it mocks every prayer that I cry I stumble, I fall I feel nothing at all Just ashes and silence inside The ego takes hold Its grip turns cold It laughs as I kneel in the dirt It whispers with glee “You’ll never break free— Your love is a dream that won’t work.” But then a hand breaks through A friend pulls me true Reminding me I’m not alone In the pit of despair They meet me there And together we carve out a home The ego fights back It plans its attack But we rise, one bundle, one flame Through faith above reason In every season We cry out the Creator’s Name So though I bleed It’s love that I need And it’s love that will carry me still From the lowest descent To the heights heaven-sent His mercy fulfills every will

Through the Ashes The lies I hear Scream loud in my ear They promise, but tear me apart Desires betray They lead me astray Leaving scars in the depth of my heart The mask I wear Is heavy with care And it mocks every prayer that I cry I stumble, I fall I feel nothing at all Just ashes and silence inside But a hand breaks through A friend pulls me true Reminding me I’m not alone In the pit of despair They meet me there And together we carve out a home The ego fights back It plans its attack But we rise, one bundle, one flame Through faith above reason In every season We cry out the Creator’s Name So though I bleed It’s love that I need And it’s love that will carry me still From the lowest descent To the heights heaven-sent His mercy fulfills every will

The Path of Struggle The nights feel long The pain feels strong And the ego keeps whispering lies The war within The weight of sin It crushes, it burns, it denies But the heart won’t break It learns to awake When a friend holds your hand through the storm Through fire and tears Through shadows and fears A new soul begins to form So we fall, we rise We tear off disguise Till only the truth can remain Through love we ascend Through the strength of a friend And eternal connection we gain So cling to the Light Through the darkest night For the Creator is near all along When the hearts unite Faith takes its flight And our suffering turns into song

Depart From Evil  I spit at the mirror, I curse at the night, The filth of my heart won’t let in the light. I claw at the chains that tighten my breath, Every thought that I chase just drags me to death. I preach that I’m holy, but rot fills my veins, My ego’s a tyrant that laughs at my pains. I run from the shadows, they tear me apart, I see that the devil’s been etched in my heart. The more that I fight, the deeper I sink, I drown in the poison I promised to drink. My “strength” is a lie, my “virtue” a fraud, I’m nothing but ashes without my God. But just when I’m shattered, too broken to stand, A whisper of mercy takes hold of my hand. The fire is quenched, the torment is still, The Healer restores me—according to His will. So evil departs, not by might, not by art, But by faith above reason and love in the heart. Through prayer and surrender, the bondage will cease, The darkness is broken, the soul finds its peace.