When Prayer Can't Pray

 

“When Prayer Can’t Pray”

I came with words, I came with need

I came believing You would lead

I knocked so hard my knuckles bled

And heaven stayed completely dead

My mouth went dry, my heart went cold

The body laughed, you’ve prayed — you’re old

“Look at the years, look at the cost

Every request already lost”

I knew You help, I knew it’s true

But knowing didn’t pull me through

The bitter herb stayed in my throat

I swallowed prayers — they wouldn’t float

Then faith collapsed, not You — just me

No strength to ask, no will to plea

So here I stood, stripped of disguise

With nothing left but empty eyes

And in that place so dark, so bare

I found one thing that still was there

A cry not shaped, a plea undone

“Help me to pray — I have none”

No answer came, no sudden light

Just one more step against my sight

To trust You hear, though I don’t feel

To pray against what looks real

This is the work — not hope that sees

But standing broke upon my knees

When prayer dies and still I stay

That is the faith above the way