From My Heart It Swears

From My Heart It Swears

From my heart it swears

No matter what I do I’m blocked there

I know it’s a lie

It’s a sign I must try

No matter the why

I ask for help this day

Only to feel rejected in every way

Each door feels shut in my face

Each prayer falls flat in space

But I know this pain ain’t random fire

It’s the Creator shaping my desire

This wall ain’t built to make me fall

It’s built to teach me where to call

Not inward, not alone

Not king, not on a throne

But into the friends, into the ten

Where my heart learns how to bend

The ego screams, “You’re cast aside”

But that’s the lie it learned to hide

Because rejection cuts the pride

So truth can grow where love abides

If I’m blocked, it’s not the way

It’s the “me” that wants to stay

This lock won’t break by force or might

Only by choosing us over right

So I don’t curse this empty prayer

I don’t run from the deadened air

I bring my lack, naked and true

And place it softly into you

And there — between our shared despair

A crack appears inside the wall

Not in my heart, not in my head

But between us — where Light is bred

That’s where the answer always was

Not mercy earned, not wages paid

But love assembled piece by piece

Until the block itself is prayed