Psalms In The Heart

My True Identity Will I own my self Will I say YES to my life Will I be honest about my story Will I see it all for what it is Born in pain Born feeling pain Born incapable of ignoring pain Never "normal" Never able to be just like everyone else Always wondering Always asking Always searching Never satisfied Never content Questioning Arguing Debating Seeking, searching Doubting, fearing Crying out Restless Anxious Obnoxious Arrogant Conceited And at the same time Confused as hell Angry Resentful Bitter Feeling lost, alone Desperately seeking more, better, different and knowing all along that it too would be empty Futility Emptiness Despair Rage - why me? Why do I have to feel? What do I do with all of this? Will I own my identity? Will I say yes to my story? Will I whole heartedly join the new leaders of the brand new world? Will I surrender my renega...

When one works in this field of love Creating unity from above Never leaving the point from the center Showing all just where to enter This is the work where the effort counts Uniting our hearts despite being trounced Learning how to love your neighbor as yourself Rising above the ego, put on the shelf Like searching for the love of your life The one wanted to be your wife Holding on to the feelings that were gained This search for the center must never wane Only in the center can wholeness be found As the feeling of unity is spread all around United in love for all to see How living in unity is the way to be Living in Mutual Guarantee

As we come together to unite our desires The heart begins to ignite on fire A fire and passion with the feeling of being whole Like dripping water into a bowl Bringing from the heart to the mind so clear This desire of oneness that is no longer feared A desire so strong it overrides all else Allowing ones ego to be put on a shelf From the left to the right then to the middle it goes Experiencing a knowing to the world to show The integral society in which one lives Where all the desires pass through a sieve Bringing only the desires that can’t be undone Uniting the all into the ONE!

How many times does a heart have to ache Before we realize it’s for Natures sake How many loves does one have to loose Before he wakes up and above the ego choose How much pain does one have to go through Before he realizes that it’s not about you If all of reality is a reflection of our desire That builds in intensity catching it on fire Then why does man hold on to ways that bring such pain Feeling inside like someone else controls the reins One minuet he’s on high loving his brothers And in the very next he is abusing all the others Why is it that man seems helpless to change When you look from the outside in it all seems so strange The only constant that is found within Is that there is none else besides Him!

As time rolls on, this illusionary gate That blocks man from fulfilling his fate It holds one in check not allowing him to move Allowing ones ego to get lost in it’s grove But a beautiful thing happens when the group meets When the brothers open their hearts to you as they greet As you open your heart back to them As our hearts unite its like a transparent gem Linking us all together as one man with one heart Holding the visions that give the best start Bringing the world closer to becoming whole Allowing us to see just who has control As we find our way to the center of the group Inside releasing a giant loud whoop Filling each other with joy for the goal This is what brings us back to becoming whole One! Arvut! 

There are only two forces that exist in the world One is full of beauty as the others cruelty is unfurled They cannot exist in the same space or time One is in your face the other has no clear sign They are opposites that repel each other in every way If you want to experience one then the other must go away The problem is that one always says it’s the other While the beautiful one mask’s itself in all the brothers The truth is they are from the same source But until one knows which is their controlling force One will be blind throughout their life’s course To wake up that part of you that allows you to see One must join a group where they discover their internality As this group goes through workshops where the method is discovered The internal group’s center is uncovered Feeling each other’s intentions and desires Is what raises the group much higher Higher to that one source in him Helping each to discover there’s none else besides him 

The time has come when the path was given To all of those who have risen Above the ego and all the hate To love of friends I call this fate Because we all will get to this point in life Where our choice is clear to rise above the strife And see our friends as the greatest of all And not seeing the faults which cause us to fall To place the ego upon the shelf And love our neighbor as we love our self To see myself as a big fat zero While holding our friends as the true hero Nullifying my ego towards my friends at best As we hold each other close to the vest What will it take to reach Shavuot this day To find the center of the group in every way To reach the first rung of the ladder to climb Forgetting about space and time Arvut!!!