My True Identity By Molly Bolte

My True Identity

Will I own my self

Will I say YES to my life

Will I be honest about my story

Will I see it all for what it is

Born in pain

Born feeling pain

Born incapable of ignoring pain

Never "normal"

Never able to be just like everyone else

Always wondering

Always asking

Always searching

Never satisfied

Never content

Questioning

Arguing

Debating

Seeking, searching

Doubting, fearing

Crying out

Restless

Anxious

Obnoxious

Arrogant

Conceited

And at the same time

Confused as hell

Angry

Resentful

Bitter

Feeling lost, alone

Desperately seeking more, better, different

and knowing all along that it too would be empty

Futility

Emptiness

Despair

Rage - why me?

Why do I have to feel?

What do I do with all of this?

Will I own my identity?

Will I say yes to my story?

Will I whole heartedly join the new leaders of the brand new world?

Will I surrender my renegade, rebel "individual" will to my ultimate destiny?

Will I awaken to this truth -

all will be answered

all will be fulfilled

only in the full, total, complete consent and surrender to myself as a part of the ONE

Will I finally give up the fight against

standing alone

and realize

that I must melt within the ONE

Will I choose 

Will I make the only free choice I have

or will blows

force me to choose?

Will I run with joy toward the castle - toward my friends - waiting for me

or will I be forced

to bang on the door as the dogs eat at my heels and rip at my clothes?

Help Help Help

Help Help Help

Lies, arrogance, vanity, conceit and pride

keep me out

Help Help Help

Alone I cannot chose

Now is the time

May I choose to be who I am

By Molly Bolte